Don’t know why but I didn’t have any energy today. I started the day on the couch to watch a little TV. I was a little tired so I figured I’d park myself here and get going once I felt more energetic There is a lot of things around the house that needs attending to. That energy never materialized, just sat there watching television. By the afternoon, I kept dozing off so I decided to take a quick cat nap. Then, reenergize, I would get stuff done. Well, that cat nap lasted till 6pm. Day gone, nothing done – what a waste. Don’t know if it was AL (the ALS) or my inherent laziness but I’m not happy.
Accomplishing things around the house is something that I’ve been having trouble with for the past 6 months. It takes quite an effort now to get started. Even when I do get going, it doesn’t last long. Sure, now it’s physically more difficult to get around but even 6 month ago when I felt relatively good, I was having trouble. Inside, it’s almost as if a switch inside my brain has been switched off. The push inside me to get things is no longer there.
I suspect this is another facet of Al, a mental side. Everyone knows his physical side, how he steals your physical strength away, but living with him I now see he has a mental side also. It’s another challenge to overcome. Always changing [my body], always adjusting [me] that’s the new norm.
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